🌿To Heal

To Heal

To heal is to feel the trauma of my five-year-old self.
To weep for her stolen innocence.
To grieve a loss that was never fully understood.

To heal is to hold her hand in the darkest night,
to guide her safely back to her own bed.
To lay beside her,
to protect her
from the faceless shadow man standing at the door.

To heal is quiet, in quietness.
The armour unlocks with tears—
releasing one fear,
then many.

Confusion.
Dissociation.
Vivid, cloudy memories
litter the landscape of her mind, my mind.

But I choose now—
to surrender to the healing
of feeling the pain she carried.
To sit with it.
To stay.
To love her.
To heal her.

I choose her.
I honour her,
again and again.

If this reflection resonates with a part of your own becoming, you’re not alone. Thank you for reading.

With an open heart,

Meagan